Soccer Girls

The girls started their first soccer season Feb. 1st. They had one practice before their first game on Feb 4th. Needless to say, they are learning a lot!

For the first game Ashley tried a running position but at first felt more comfortable doing goalie, while Emily skipped and pranced around learning how to play mid-fielder. Both girls like soccer and are on a team of 10 kids- 3 boys and the rest girls, seven kids are on the field at a time. The season lasts 2 months. I like how Ashley is trying something new and working out how to be brave even though she doesn't always know what to do. I like how Emily is getting lots of running in because she doesn't always like to exercise but while chasing a soccer ball she has a good incentive.

The picture was during the first game as they are waiting their turn to go in. During the movie Aaron asks "Where's the shooting star?" He was seeing the airplane's long white tail in the sky and thought it was a shooting star.

Aaron's prayer

In the last couple of weeks I have been praying with the girls at bedtime. Aaron has been noticing. Usually we help him say prayers by encouraging him to tell God thanks for his "trucks and trains", which he happily does.

Tonight he offered one of his first prayers without help while laying in his bed:

"Dear Heavenly Father,

Thank you for dirt in the water. Thank you for gushy. Thanks you for this guy (while holding up his tractor he was cuddling with). Thank you for trains that can go backwards. Vrrrm Vrrrm Rrrrr. (long pause) Mom, can I have a drink of water?"

What I loved was that is the way his brain works coming out in sentences to God. I know I didn't talk to him about mud, gushy, or trains that go backwards today.

What I love too is when I am talking to the girls about something (like what they learned in class, or about a plan we are making), Aaron gets insistent that he have a turn to say his idea. And his idea is usually always "There was a big strong rocket. And it was orange and big and strong and goes up in the sky- pshhhhhhhhh!" I think our trip to NASA over Christmas really had an impression. Everything cool/good enough is 'big and strong'. Like how much mashed potatoes he wanted tonight at dinner for his second scoop was a big and strong scoop.

Potty training is going well which to me means few accidents and few tears. I have him sit and pee on the potty once or twice a day and each time he goes. He has pooped too sometimes. I just am the initiator. He doesn't even need marshmallow treats anymore but does like it when I read to him. Wearing big boy train undies is still really cool and worth running over to dad to show him his 'undie buns' each time. I love that I am teaching all the routine parts of toilet training before actually pulling the trigger on undies all day. So far he can: pull down his own pants, take off his diaper, climb up on the stool backwards to sit down, scoot back to get in position, hold onto the toilet so he's not wobbly, shake before getting off, flush, close the lid, to wash because we have germs on our hands, with soap, and scrub, enough to make a bubbly lather, rinse, dry and that something needs to go on your bottom afterwards. Each one is a major success! Next step in procedure is turning off lights. I know his wife will thank me someday.

I am also starting to have him take his drink to the fridge after each meal and help with the velcro on his shoes. Cleaning up messes is really hard for him right now. But it's responsibility time dude.

He favorite toy is Thomas (the train). He thinks trainese. Brushing his teeth and riding his bike are both more fun when we are pretending we are trains. He asked Bryan tonight what he favorite train was and he wasn't satisfied with Victor or Percy, but Hero was good enough (you have to seen Thomas shows to know these names). He is a picky man.

Fancied Up

Taken this morning in front of our house before church. Girls got new dresses from Costco yesterday and Aaron is sporting a tie for the first time ever. We were looking good! 11 a.m. church is truer.

New Year, New Attempt

I am feeling updatish on my blog. In part because my first attempted family skype conference call is failing.

And it's a new year, why not?


Hair styling time in the bathtub. All my cuties in a row being stylists.

We woke up to snow falling while we were visiting Utah. Aaron on his way to the "O-bells" (Zobells house with 2 boys and all their toys) neighbor's house. He loves their whole family and their trains and gogurts.

Sending out some Hanks art love to Wes and Kristen as they are starting the chemo process.

Ashley and Aaron having a jam session in our living room on the pots and pans.

Bryan's 33rd birthday party, co-celebrated with a double birthday party with Spencer. They are laughing because Bryan blew out the candles on 2 of 1-2-3, instead of 3. Oops. No wish for Spencer this year.

Pre-Thanksgiving Fun

Emily's Thanksgiving Day celebration is happening tomorrow at school and part of it are the 3 sisters. As we drove home from Emily getting her hair cut, this was the discussion the girls were having about the 3 sisters:
Em: Mom I decided which of the 3 sisters I want to bring tomorrow. It's beans!
Me: That's great b/c that's what Grammy asked us to bring. I just bought 2 cans.
Ash: The 3 sisters are corn, beans, and squash
Em: No it's corn, gourds and squash
Ash: No it's beans
Em: Yea I know, because gourds and squash are the same
Ash: Pretend a gourd came by and squashed the squash. Squash the squash. Ha ha ha. Then there was a new squash.
Em: Are gourds and squash the same mom?
Me: I don't know. Let's go home and research.
I enjoyed the separateness of the conversation that was weaving in and out of connectedness.

Ashley has her kindergarten Thanksgiving play tomorrow. She plays the part of a pilgrim girl and has two lines. Her teacher is over the top fantastic and the parents are super at helping out in the class. Ash came home today with a pattern block/ feather headband, a dyed bead necklace, and a pillowcase cut and puffed painted to look like an Indian outfit. She wore that outfit to get smoothies, to Home Depot, while eating lunch, playing pollies, etc. In all, more than six hours of wearing a pillowcase and loving it. Tonight during dinner I got a preview of the 5 turkey songs that the kids will be singing at the show. Later while thinking about her big day Ashley said, "Tomorrow is the best day of my life!" Being 5 1/2 is a pretty good life.

Hit or Miss

Book of Mormon Reading: Hit or Miss

Presently I'm an occasional scripture reader. I feel good about picking up the book more days than not to read a few versus. I glory in where I'm at because the stage I was in before was not reading much at all. I have verses highlighted from a previous read-through so I usually find a couple good ideas I feel inspired about. I usually flip open to a new chapter each time and find God's word for me for the day.

Most days I think, "I could read a couple verses on the toilet while I have a minute to myself." Yea right! Some days it's during that same minute of time that my kids have to come find me, fling the door wide and insist being right by me until I am done. "Seriously you couldn't wait one minute?" I would call those days the Miss on finding God a place in my heart through scripture reading.

Today I was struggling with something mentally. I am still a little sick with a cold so I'm giving myself some slack, but I was grouchy at my day and was stressed about Bryan leaving to Utah to spend lots of time and money on his brothers. I opened the triple and found D&C 25 as my scripture for the day. I even said a small prayer before I read since I figured God knew all things, he could help me figure out my problem. Section 25 was written to Emma Smith, Joseph's wife and it's full of counsel to her to support her husband. Say what you will about Joseph, polygamy, priesthood & women subservience; God spoke to me through those scriptures. I felt like arguing based on aforementioned reasons as well as a whole spreadsheet I typed up of reasons I feel justified in my beliefs and feelings. I decided that I was okay in trusting God and putting aside all the reasons. I would say definite Hit on finding God through scriptures.

My only problem is my feelings and beliefs on the subject didn't go away. And some of my reasons have left me wondering. Other times I feel a great sense of relief that I didn't have to figure out the issues and have a battle before Bryan left on his trip. In any rate, I feel encouraged about God knowing me, the scriptures speaking to people today, reading the word being a worthwhile investment of my time, and finding that trusting God was a lot less stress in my life overall even though he didn't tell me what I wanted to hear.

Grateful that I matter to him

I fell asleep tonight around 9:30pm while laying next to Aaron helping him go to sleep. I didn't intend to stay there asleep b/c I usually wake up after 5 minutes and are able to get up and put myself to bed. Bryan went to the grocery store. I woke up at 10:30pm extremely groggy and had a hard time having the energy to do anything: brush teeth, etc was a big chore. With Bryan's help we were in bed around 10:45.

12:30 I wake to crying Aaron. He fell out of bed the other night and just needed a hug to go back to sleep. I figured it was the same and didn't take my glasses with. (I always take my glasses). I was half way to their room when Emily calls out, "Mom he's throwing up!" Sure enough he was.

He's never thrown up before poor guy. He was sad and moving around and got his bed and the girls' bed yucky. Praises be for an echo-y tile house and that Bryan woke up to help. His first task was to get my glasses, and then he moved the girls to our bed, removed all the sheets and remade the girls' bed. I helped the boy get cleaned up and calmed down, started a load of laundry and remade his bed. We moved the girls back and I laid down by Aaron to help him go to sleep while Bry went back to bed. I had sung a lot of songs when I laid down with him the first time. He seemed tired and I knew it wouldn't be long this time. So I hummed You are my Sunshine and then had the idea to hum We Thank Thee O God for a prophet. Church songs I usually hum are I love to see the temple, I am a child of god, I wonder when he comes, and I'm trying to be like Jesus. Every now and then I'll do the prophet song but faith, church, and God for me has been not super great recently. It's a long story but in essence I rebelled against the thought to hum that song b/c of how I feel right now. But actually I had a fantastic church experience last Sunday (another story) and so I said to myself okay I will hum it. (This conversation in my head took less than 3 seconds).

As soon as I started to hum it I felt a strong impression that I needed to go find a general conference talk (that idea came to me Sunday night of conference but I haven't had one thought of conference since then) and it need to be the Pres. Uchtdorf talk that I remember I liked. When he gave it, or what it was about I had no idea. I just knew it needed to happen now, in the middle of the night. So I finished with Aaron, moved clothes to the dryer, and was starting to put the next load in when I felt a sense of urgency to go read. I couldn't even take the time to start a load of laundry? Okay I'm interested and intrigued if this really is you talking God.

The talk? You Matter to Him from Saturday morning. If there ever was a message to get in the night when you have some doubts about God, that's the one I would pick to send to myself.

Plus when I was almost done reading I could hear Aaron up again and I was able to get him out of the girls' bed that he'd climbed into; right before throw up number three. That event could have altered my life in a very negative way. I am imagining throw up on girls' hair which would wake them up, shower them = fighting and screaming kids, no clean pillows for them, etc. Like I said, it could have been a terrible fiasco.

Instead I was reading, heard stirring, pulled him out bed to his own, when his heaving started I grabbed a blanket. Clean up was wiping the yucky out of his mouth and taking the blanket away. When I think of a caring God, that was one. Especially coupled with His message He wanted me to know.

When I read the talk the part that stuck out to me was: "He sees you as the being you are capable of and designed to become." That line doesn't really appeal to me logically or emotionally so I feel it's not from me, but the message He would have me hear. The whole last part of the talk was really good. The parts I like are: "He knows you. He loves you... If you but hold on, believe in Him, and remain faithful... He wants you to know that you matter to Him. May we ever believe, trust..."

This is my happy news so I wanted to share it. And I wanted to remember it for me because it's a really cool story. I am headed to bed with a carefree, in awe, happy attitude thinking, "Huh, I matter!" Kind of like the flower picking game- he likes me!